Year in review

Wow what a great unfortunate unpredictable happy mad and frustrating year. When I started this blog I was beyond irritated frusterated mad angry and annoyed. I had friends who had dumped us. I had friends that had two sides to their personality.  I had friends who were fakes behind our backs. I saw people struggle while their neighbors had fantastic life's. I read and saw couples and families increase their stature in living.  They had a great home a car and were highly educated. They lost their income but kept their possessions because they received handouts from their church.  I was tired of seeing people make mistakes that ultimately should of made them have a wake-up call did not teach them nothing because they were constantly saved by their safety nets. I finally had it and to save my sanity I had to write my feelings down and boy did it sure help.

So I've decided that for my 1 year review I would take my very first blog post, dissect it and tell you a little bit more perspective and stories of what was happening within the word's.

I got my first smart phone 2 years ago. Obviously since then I have had unlimited resources to the world wide web and to peoples personal lives. It was back in 2009 after being unsuccessful the second time for tickets to the Christmas concert and Christmas devotional that I found out by typing a few words into Google I could find out who did win and who did go.

After months of not having enough pay and having more work I decided I was going to find out if my life was normal. Was I the only one who was forced to stay home on the weekends because I could not afford to drive to the grocery store to fill my fridge or did in fact others have a fabulous life that I had every right to as much as they did. Thats what started my searching and what started my blog. It's what also led me to this blogger who I mentioned in my first post.

Excuse my grammar. I've thought about fixing it but since it gives me an unintelligent character I'll leave it. In this first paragraph I was referring to an annoying newlywed couple who had it rough. After taking a trip to Italy they returned for a week somehow got the time off (and the money) to go to Disneyland. An unplanned trip out of the blue! I'm sorry there is no way that with one in college and the other in an entry level position that they didn't have support.  They were constantly flying to her home town in Washington and taking a trip Every weekend.  They had to be supported. Why? Yeah it is non of my business but in my own religious universal confusing belief it is my business. It didn't make sense to me and it also proved that yes I really did have a crappy life.

The next couple I blog spied on is referenceed here (again these are all from my very first blog post)

Yes they did have a secluded cabin. I couldn't tell if her husband's side owned it or if it was her side. She talked about running  away to it every time she was depressed or sad or just to get away. After a cousin of hers died she went there often to "deal" with her emotions. Funny thing is is that she has not mentioned her cousin for about a year. She did have a baby but I wonder (respectfully) if she was writing about him so that people would be sympathetic toward her. She was sure sympathetic towards herself.

Out of all the blogs I followed i think this one intrigued me the most.  This couple had no and I mean no financial problems. They had a gorgeous nice 400,000 dollar house on a hill close to Provo.(paid for by there parents I'm assuming) I actually found where they did live how much they paid and how much they sold it (man Google is great isn't) and  they were both under 25! I know life is not fair and including not fair to them. They had twins.  A girl and a boy. When they were 4 months they went on a trip to Hawaii that her mom paid for without her kids. I don't know about you but I would have a hard time leaving a 4 month old for 10 days.  Lastly I don't know why some rich LDS members think it's all right to take their garments off when they are on vacation.  I'm not perfect (trust me) but I've never had a problem with that. She was non stop in a spaghetti strap while on her "second" honeymoon. (I'm still waiting for my first honeymoon)

I know this is all gossip or personal problems of mine but I will get to a point....maybe.....someday lol. My point in writing about this is some people like me need to realize and open our eyes to others who live nearby and ask why are they living better. Is it religious?  Did god bless them with a fabulous life? Why? Is it political?  Laws protecting there wealth. Why? Their job or inheritance?  How can I have a more even playing feild.  

Well since I've started this blog I have seen alot of changes in 2014 year vs the previous year.  I finally was invited to a cabin. Twice! I went to Disneyland. (Overdrafted my bank account and would of rather not of gone but it was still fun) I didn't have to work 10 weeks. (Had to lose my left hand functions) I went to the beach twice. Drove to Illinois  Arizona California. I even surprised my wife with her first ski trip. Yes things are getting better yes I still have things I need to resolve mentally emotional physically and financialy. Yes this blog makes no sense and sometimes I hypocritically contradict myself.  I'm trying to find my balance and as soon as I do (or when I win the lottery) I am erasing this blog. It's only perpose is to help me therapeutically find my way.

Here's to 2015 being the year I find the reasons to erase my blog.