When I started this blog I didn't know what my exact intentions were. I knew I had an opinion I felt nobody cared about. I knew the hand that was dealt to me could of been better. I did see opportunities taken away from me that seemed rightfully as much as mine as it was for the person given those opportunities. It wasn't until later down the road when I would rant on my blog about how life was hard for me but mr jones down the street has an easier life due to some base of support that I didn't have and then all of a sudden I would have an opportunity or something happen that improved my perspectuve (which never happened before this blog) I then realized what the purpose of this blog was and when and why someday it will be erased and forgot about.
I was thinking lately what would it take for me to erase this blog. Again this blog is my therapy you reading are my free therapis and I'm not counting on having a therapist forever. So I've come up with a few solutions that could immediately be the solution to the blog........ erasing .........ceremony thingy..dun dun dun! and if that's not confusing enough my solutions may be.
1. The grandest solution. 150,000 big ones. Money can't buy you everything but a lump sum could buy peace of mind. I recently calculated my entire debt. It's sad but exciting to realize that my entire debt is less than my house was bought for back in 2007. Thats everything. The house car medical credit and 401 k loans. If only right? I don't need a million but I could argue for 150000
2. On the same subject as the above line a better paying job or an increase in salary could be my solution to erasing this blog. I do have some developments in this but it's to early to blog about it just yet. Give me 3 weeks.
3. Some basic and extreme luck. Win a radio station prize or a getaway. A cruise (oh how I would lover to go on a cruise) a trip to Hawaii or Bahamas. Or more extreme the lottery. Just dreaming.
4. A getaway place of my own. To be more specific a cabin. Somewhere I can escape to on the weekends to get away Somewhere I can just start a fire and think.
5. People being envious of me and my situation for once Instead of the other way around. A better house? More surprised vacations? better luck?
6. how about some good honest caring friends who don't leave you in the dust when another friend comes along. Someone who likes to go camping and go out go eat. (my wife and i seriously asked this one couple a dozen times. It didnt bother me until i foumd out they did go out to eat with another couple who was the biological mom of their son) Someone who doesn't chose you as the babysitter while they hang out with their other friends. Someone who won't exclude you.
7. And Lastly a little friendly revenge. You and I have both had those situations where you know if the shoe was on your foot you would of done something different. Take my older brother for example. I ask him for a loan tell him all my private financial history only to be told no. Friends who have been so friendly not to invite us somewhere only to find out they invited the new friends. Or family bringing over their toys only to find out they invited their friends to go have fun and not you. I know it a jeolousy issue but if the shoe was on the other foot wouldnt they be jeolous? And again this is my blog. I will and can be jealous if I want to.
I Don't know the perfect recepie for me to erase this course setting blog. I do know it will be. I just need some perfect luck and a perfect life for just a while. Long enough to navigate to the right course. The course I've been trying to get on for the last 10 years And guess what, things are happening that are helping. More things to come. The course is starting to change.
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